This website is slowly coming together. I’m so glad. I study n focus my mind n giggle in my past time bc — 4mee — the goal in life is to utilize as much “gold, adventure, luvv, n paz” in whatever investment im working on OR whatever empowering notion im trying to balloon into the worlds.
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Im just soo grateful to my goddz — whom, i affectionately call “goddzilla” heh / serio — and im looking forward to the next universe/era of my life ‘;^) .. all praise bee 2goddz .. shalom selah, sub deo paz.
借光求智学佛 :: so, low key i wish i was from Beijing — instead, ima Puerto 🇵🇷 Mediterr-Rican (Connecticut) Yankee livin out here en Fabulous Las Vegas Nevada. I really enjoy the spices, food, FASHION, female form & the Chinese language is soo interesting.
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So, today — September 21, 2026 — im picking up the Buddhist Lifestyle/Mantra .. I skimmed over what it means to be Buddhist and im about 80% of the way there, Im sure.
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Ive chose to follow the Pure Light Path along w the 8 to 10 Noble Principles. .. im reciting from memory so please excuse any mistakes ive made.
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My new purpose in life is:
1. Become more like/become a Buddha (借光求智学佛).
2. Start a digital radio channel
3. Learn how to code/cybersecurity/data analytics
4. Deejay more from my bedroom
5. Get more executive esperience
6. Enter UNLV by 2032 & earn an mba/healthcare management degree.
7. Start a digital fellowship focusing on spirituality and community organizing
8. Play video games more
9. Save 3k in my savings by xmas 2027.
10. Lose 149 pounds by xmas 2027.
11. Get a membership to Coursera and get all the Google Certificates I can get within 2 years.
12. Become an ethical hacker and work at an S&P100 company.
13. Open a codeacademy accout xmas 2027
14. File “dba” paperwork for one of my company ideas.
15. Get more tattoos; get more $10 Flash Tattoos
16. Listen to at minimum 52 audio books on Spotify that are AT LEAST 4hours in length.
17. Stay away from cigarettes
18. Lift weights 3 times a week (m/w/fr).
19. Work for myself (on Tu/Th/Sa/Sun) from 6am to 12pm or 24hours a week.
20. Take WeGovy religiously
21. Deposit 300usd into my savings account every month
22. Donate plasma and save that money for Rainy Daye
23. Meditate more (4x weekly); pray to my goddz/goddzilla team more often.. twice a week..
24. In 2028, buy software to make/produce beats & audio politica for GETH PARADISE RADIO F. DEEJAY WHERE’$ GRIFFIN.
“Can i liiiive?” i feel like im mentally dying .. . Ive lost so much hope in the notions, of:
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I… am going through a phase. I hid my “unit: paternal” as opposed to my “maternal unit; unit: mater” in a “Memory of Time” .. sorta like “opposite PTSD”
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The memory, the last good feeling: the last last fondest memory of my – so called, yet now passed – father; unit paternal .. is hidden in the memories of playing “Zelda.”
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Ima not sure why, but i remember feeling exceptionally hurt — so much that i would mumble to myself around 4 years old, that: “i cannot take this, i miss this guy too much.. where the damn iz my dad..” Follow in suit, decades of drama n trauma.. then you’ll understand the most-dreadfully, annoying “Marisol-Juanita Morales Ortiz Clan Dynasty” that added wound after psychological would to my gentle, demeanor life..
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For those of you who wonder or are already holding me in contempt: i thought until my 30s that “unit mater morales” was significantly poorer than she made herself out to be.. meaning, i learned through the grapevine that Marisol Morales — my care taker until i finally called foster care myself — was burning through money daily by buying pizza for breakfast/lunch (skipp dinner) EVERY FUCKING DAY .. while i was away at middle/high skewL.. and NONE of my so called “familia” had enough brass to help me out of famine.. my gran — juanita ortiz — just kept calling me fat & didnt eanna take care of her 40 year old daughter SO SHE WOULD SHAME ME into doing things that would have taken her some/less time than i coulda/woulda/shoulda used..
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Its tough having to walk up a mile long hill to high skewL, without coffee or money for a bologna sandwich — i was suicidal most days while in high school — missing the “paid for by the city/state” breakfast of maybe half a cup of cereal n a milk box (which, i was mildly lactose intoleranted) .. then having to RUSH through a moderatley, small high school lunch bc your Regional Prep/Vocational School bus left hella early for its trek across town.. THEN having to go to work for a few hours after school (mind you, im up 7am and busy until about 430pm daily/weekly) just to go home and REMEMBER, “damn, we dont have bread.. wow.. theres no ham in the fridge.. why the fuk are all these dirty dishes NOT CLEANED .. wth.. other than cause problems what else does Marisol Morales do all day.. n wth does the whole house smell rotten..”
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Stories of my inequity childhood b4 i went clandestine.
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SOTO; Fred Simon Griffin (name pending)
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The vibe: shout 2Jigga
So.. this is a secret: since elementary skewL i .. can feel my brain flexing lmbo .. what im trying to say, is: have you ever gotten the mental mood/processing power of “ooh, i gotta run!” Or, “damn; im about to collapse — i just cannot do this: giving up in 3.. 2.. collapse..”. If youve felt this way.. can you remember how your mind/cranium felt?
Im not sure how or why but .. when i think real hard: i think i can feel my brain flex .. 0_o .. <( yeh wtf breh ) .. i sound cray .. but are there other people who can/have felt the same?
Imagine standing, imagine someone behind you with an egg thats inching closer and closer to your brain stem or back of your neck.. you know that process you use to detect the object behind you.. is the process n feelings i get when i try to tap into my “gamma intuition” to keep myself safe/enhance my life style..
Maybe im just being dumb, but i really wanna know if anyone has ever experienced “heightened intuition” this way.. and if so.. what/how have you been using your skill set as of recently..
If this is not you: try to be understanding.
Thank you for listening..
-F. Simon Griffin (Septee 2026)
Have you ever liked a villain more than the hero? Who and why?
( Hell, yeah:
The Joker is a way better character to root 4instead of BatMan. BatMan is so wacked .. an alleged “Billionaire, Tech Genius, Vigilante” who only knocks out his Fr-enemies. WE the People, want more Social Justice BatMan )> !_!
I literally went to town on an app i have that makes logos and.. i now have a logo for each page of my website! Yay for branding!
Please see below: theyre not all winners so just bear in my before you n start judging me .. .
With nearly 12 hours of non-stop fidgeting and 2 weekends of thinking: “how do i use this damn thing;” these are my results.
Im excited n grateful 2the goddz that today 9/9/26: I moved into my forever apartment .. soo exciting. Soo necessary.. so imlressive. ‘:^D
